I love Ben so very much but sometimes he drives me absolutely insane! He's been fighting a viral infection that has finally come to a head over the weekend. He has been very whiney since Saturday and his napping and eating are all over the map. I know it is because he is sick but it is becoming very difficult for me to be around him for long. This morning I actually shut the bathroom door while I was getting ready so I wouldn't have to listen to him whine while Louis was fixing his lunch. Of course, I immediately felt guilty. What kind of mother would ignore her child like that? Especially after we went through so much to have him. I should love to spend every second with him, no matter what. Right?
I know that those feelings are wrong. I know that any mother sometimes needs a few moments of quiet to preserve her own sanity. I know that just because we had to "work" for him, that doesn't make us bad parents if we don't love being with him every single second. Some days I forget that, though, and those are the days that I feel like The World's Worst Mother.
Maybe I should make a little cross stitch sampler to remind me that I am allowed to be frustrated sometimes and it's even okay to close the door.