Where we have been and where we are going

Oh, what an emotional mind f*** TTC can be...

After MUCH discussion, we decided to try a new donor last month.  Everything looked perfect and I was so certain that it would work.  Yeah, no dice.  We were using a donor who had no reported pregancies but that's not really a consideration.  Who knows why it didn't work.  I think that is one of my biggest gripes about this whole process - too many variables!! I like nice, constant "if, then" equations.  TTC, especially with DI, is just a big black box.  You throw it all in and who knows what whill come out.

But, I digress.

While that cycle was playing out, we received confirmation that we can purchase the last 5 sibling vials from another family (!)  Hopefully, everything will be squared away so we can cycle in February and March.  That will be 7 cycles trying to conceive a second child.  We've decided that if neither cycle works, we're done.  I don't want to waste Ben's childhood in TWWs.  I also don't want to spend all of our financial reserves so that we can't afford another child if we were to conceive. 

I feel at peace with this decision.  We have tried all we could reasonably try.  We have "found" far more vials than we ever thought we would and have been given multipe second chances but at some point you have to just say "enough". 

Comments

[LutC]

Too many variables indeed! I'm mulling over what to do next too.

Great news that you found those vials and I hope you're now very close to making your dream come true.